This post is coming right from my heart and in my opinion going to be brutally honest. I recently had a conversation with someone and it was brought to my attention that I have been very negative as of late. Now for any of you that “REALLY” know me and I think I can speak on behalf of most if not all of those people, I am NOT normally a negative person and am generally a happy go lucky guy. However this conversation really struck a chord with me, maybe because it has hit a nerve. Direct hit to said nerve in fact and I can tell you it has made me seriously think about and examine my recent attitude and behaviours.
Upon much reflection, I have come to the conclusion that this person is completely accurate. It has been very hard for me to come to that conclusion, this realization and actually admit this to myself. I have to say that it is not an easy thing to do, to take a long hard look at yourself in the mirror and actually like what is staring back at you. I have to say I am very disappointed in myself and actually ashamed of my behaviour. Not that I have done horrible or mean things to other people as a result of this attitude but to know that I have actually affected others with my negative attitude torments me greatly.
Having cleared what I think is the biggest hurdle, actually coming to this conclusion that this has been an issue and admitting it to myself, I must get to the root of the cause and consciously make the necessary changes. Let’s face it, most people don’t want negativity around them. It’s like a magnet once it is present it just attracts more and continues to breed and eventually consume people.
I have noticed more and more, we as people generally have a tendency to be negative. It is very easy to get sucked into someone else’s negative behaviour. Is it because it’s easier for people to be that way as opposed to being positive? Misery loves company right? It would seem that in the past year there has been a lot that has happened in my life and it has been quite eye opening to say the least.
Perhaps I should thank this friend (you know who you are, if you are reading this post) THANKS for giving me this new found insight because change can only begin with me!